clutching my cure

i tightly lock the door

i try to catch my breath again

i hurt much more

than anytime before

i had no options left again



i don’t know what’s worth fighting for

or why i have to scream

i don’t know why i instigate

and say what i don’t mean

i don’t know how i got this way

i know it’s not alright

so i’m breaking the habit

tonight